Well, I took a pretty long break from this blog. I like to think that there’s an excuse for this; graduating from grad school, dealing with family drama, losing my two grandmothers within 2 months of each other, dealing with medical issues, moving in with my boyfriend … the list goes on. I kept telling myself that I’d get back on track once things slowed down. But here’s the thing: life doesn’t slow down. We are always moving. Sometimes we move forward and sometimes we move side to side, making lateral motions in attempt to fight change. The one way we can’t move is backwards. It’s impossible to go back and do things differently, and counterproductive to wish that we could. My dad likes to tell me to “live in the present, because we can’t dwell on the past or worry about the future.” The only time that matters is right now. Here’s my graphic to help you remember these words of wisdom:
During the hardships I’ve faced in the last 6 months, I’ve been so focused on the things that were going wrong that I couldn’t appreciate the things in my life that are wonderful. You see, I’m a pessimist. It’s not something I’m proud to admit, but my initial reaction to a situation that is less than perfect is to freak out. I was beginning to wonder why I wasn’t strong enough to deal with the hand I’ve been dealt, and what the point was of it all. When I shared these revelations with my boyfriend of two years, who is one of the most laid-back, positive people I know, his reply was as follows: “I don’t know what the point is of it all. I don’t have any answers about life on this earth. The only thing I do know is that I want to have more happy days than sad days.” So I guess I need to move on from this quarter-life crisis of mine and start appreciating the moments of right now. It’s up to me to create my own happiness. Because life really is too short.